My New Year’s Revolution

This is a poem I wrote some time ago. It’s still a bit rough around the edges but I decided I’d share it anyway.

Everyone is talking of resolutions, but I think
Next year I am going to have a revolution.
I don’t plan to overthrow the government
Or to demonstrate in discontent.
And I won’t consider what it meant
That Trump became a president.
Instead I am going to revolutionise my own heart
And bring myself a fresh new start.

Because instead of resolutions
I will have a revolution.

I will read all the books I bought
So long ago somewhere abroad.
Finally I’ll fight alongside Enjolras,
and Marius and Jean Valjean.
I’ll have a Russian winter with a doctor called Shivago
And I’ll hang with Harry Potter (like I did ten years ago).
I will read only what delights me
I will find joy in the pages that find me.

Because instead of resolutions
I will have a revolution.

I will work, I will give it all I’ve got
I will give my best and take a shot.
But I will not give more than that
This time I will not drive myself so mad.
Just this once, for one year only
I will be ME so wholly.
Just this once, I will lean back.
Just this once, I’ve got my back.

Because instead of resolutions
I will have a revolution.

My own greatest oppressor am I myself.
The dictator of me could be no one else.
But I want to overthrow this government
And demonstrate in discontent.
And I will not be afraid
Of life and love and the things I said.
I will do what makes me smile
I will leave what has made me cry.
I am going to revolutionise my own heart
And bring myself a fresh new start.

Because instead of resolutions
I will have a revolution.

 

 

 

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Blog another… 2016!

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Happy New Year Everybody!

I hope everyone has started well into 2016 and you‘re not feeling too rotten today! I spent last night at my friend Tashina‘s house. It was so lovely; seeing as her boyfriend is currently in the States and I‘m actually in the country for once, it was just the two of us. We made pizza and then cuddled together for a movie. Of course, for me there is no such event without a cake and I had tried the vegan chocolate cake recipe from the Primrose Bakery recipe book – it was marvellous, I can tell you!
Tashina‘s family has the tradition of doing Molybdomancy on New Year‘s Eve, a technique of divination using molten metal. We melted a spoonful of lead over a candle, then poured it into a bowl of cold water. The resulting shape can either be directly interpreted as an omen for the future, or, as we did, be rotated in a candlelight to create shadows, whose shapes we then interpreted. The interpretations are very vague, however. Apparently I need to be more careful not to trip – which is a good enough piece of advice, but being as clumsy as I am, it‘s not a very unique one!

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We ended up being in a bit of a hurry towards midnight when we were supposed to meet another friend in the city centre. When am I ever not in a hurry on a holiday, huh? In the end, we were stood right on the bridge that leads into town when Midnight happened. It was perfect. We popped our prosecco and put on our party popper hats and watched the fireworks all around us.

I think the new year can‘t be half bad if the first face you look at is that of someone you love. We just stood there and took it all in, and everybody passing by shouted their new year‘s blessings, and we were a little tipsy when we finally got a move on, but the new year already felt good.

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We met up with our friend way past midnight and stepped inside some club and whipped in the rhythm of bad music for the better part of an hour before we decided to go home. I always love January 1st. I have a sore throat and a runny nose and every movement hurts, but I just put on my onesie and rewatch old episodes of The Vicar of Dibley with my cat. Actually, now I‘m debating whether or not it‘s acceptable for me to watch The Empire Strikes Back again (I‘m going through one horrid Star Wars phase at the moment, bear with me!)..

Tonight I‘ll be having dinner with Anna who you may have met (in a sense) when I was doing Blogmas. She has a wonderful blog which you‘ll find on www.tinytrinket.wordpress.com and was my blogging cooperator last month. I‘m gulping down cup after cup of tea, so I‘m fit for tonight – after all, Sherlock is airing, and we‘re both crazy excited (as in, I‘m crazy and Anna‘s excited).

The new year is going to be good, and I wish you all good luck and much love for every day to come!

Lots of love from the roots of my heart!
xxx

New Year, New Blog

Happy New Year!, we hear everywhere we go. It‘s like the world simply can‘t wait to start something new, to leave the past behind. And with this in mind, I‘m starting this new blog.

I‘ve already mentioned the fact that it is actually quite a pointless project. So far there is one person following the blog and it seems rather stupid filling my best friend in with random thoughts that I could just tell her face to face when I see her tonight. But then again, it‘s New Year‘s Eve and as John Green put it ever so delicately: „Imagining the future is a kind of nostalgia.“ And he‘s right, because when do we ever imagine the future if not on New Year‘s Eve? When if not today would we make a list of things that we want to do better in the future?

So, I believe it is not too far fetched to hope that some people will actually read my posts and make this entire blog a little less pointless. But as it is with most things, you have to get started to achieve anything at all. And I‘m not saying this to sound corny, but because it is nerve wrecking to publish this first post. Especially knowing that no one is going to see it. It is degrading, really, to know that you‘re just doing this for yourself and your best friend who only reads it because she loves you and doesn‘t want to hurt your feelings. And still, that‘s just the way things work. Harry Potter has a first page and so does everything we admire today. It‘s a big leap, but it‘s the end of the year and we all need the hope of something good that we can look forward to in the days to come.

So, there‘s two things on my New Year‘s Resolutions List. The first one obviously, to give this completely pointless blog some point, the second one, don‘t puke on January the first! It seems like yesterday that I hung over that bloody toilet for the better part of the night (though, somehow it still seems quite memorable in my mind)!

That being said, I‘m very excited about 2014. I‘m going to be totally culture shocked in two weeks when I arrive in  Honduras, we‘re celebrating my niece‘s first birthday in July, I have a new play to work on, uni starting in September — it‘s just another year that‘s going to pass without my noticing. So, whoever reads this, have a great start into this brandnew year! I hope it‘s as eventful as mine, and now that I‘ve published this despite all my instincts going „DON‘TDON‘TDON‘TDON‘T!“ you can relax and start anything you want to, because someone has already started the year off by embarrassing themselves! Cheers!

Some pointless fireworks over London that I really enjoyed!
Some pointless fireworks over London that I really enjoyed!