Last But Not Least: Day Four

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Ten years ago someone asked me what my favourite part about Winchester was, and I answered, «the catherdral.»

And I still feel mesmerised by this ancient structure that stands there so proudly. The windows were once destroyed and yet, people gathered the broken pieces and rearranged them, a beautiful chaosof of unfitting colours and shapes. The floor is crooked, and do not trust these walls. All those small imperfections that show just how desperately people want to live. How little effect war and destruction have on our need of beauty and light and divinity.

They say that Winchester is the hometown of Camelot.
I believe it.

(Quote: The Sword in the Stone [Disney])

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Blogmas (Day 16) – «It’s Going To Be Okay»

Today I was initially going to write about my Christmas shopping, but alas I left my purse at home this afternoon, and although the Swiss are very generous, not even my boss would let me have stuff for free. But that’s okay, because this time last year I was feeling a bit nostalgic and I wrote a poem about Honduras and the book shop I’m working at. Maybe it’s being around books that always makes me miss things, but I’m in that same sort of state at the moment, and I hope you like my poem.

I miss a lot of things.

I miss going to work for that first time last year.
I miss the smell of smoke and sweat and cardboard boxes in the hallway.
I miss the way my feet hurt every night.

I’m still working there now.

But it’s not the same.
It’s not the «I never want to leave this place.»
It’s more.
It’s less.

My feet still hurt.

I miss seeing Honduras from above.
For the first time.
I miss the feeling of «It’s going to be okay.»
Because it really was, you know?

I miss the song
Chim-Chim-Chiminike!
All day long.
I wanted to listen to it forever.
I didn’t want to lose it.
That song.
It was mine.

I miss the voices.
«Hola Gringa!»
The way they could carress my name.
Every Hello came with a hug.
Every hug lasted a lifetime.
Like the song.

Everybody hated the song btw.

I miss the dancing.
I hate dancing
But I was taught to love it.
Hands touching hands.
Lips touching lips.
It was a fairy tale.

But a slutty one.

I miss that side of me.
The «It’s going to be okay» side.
Because it really was, you know?

«One day I’m going to marry you.»
«Okay.»
It’s a promise
That we’ll never keep.
But we mean it
Nevertheless.

I miss eating
Until I need new pants.

«When are you leaving?»
«Never.»

I miss
Myself.

Just a little.
The me that knew
That it was going to be okay.

Because it really was, you know?

Lots of Love from the Roots of my Heart!
xxx

Again, I lost track of what Anna’ll be writing about tonight. Let’s have a look together, shall we? Her blog is right here under http://www.tinytrinket.wordpress.com

 

Blogmas (Day 2) – Anna’s Fifteen Festive Favourites

Hello Lovelies!

As I’ve mentioned yesterday I’m doing Blogmas with my friend Anna from Tiny Trinket this year. Today we are doing the Fifteen Festive Favourites Tag which, I think, is a nice way of introducing her on my blog (as you will be seeing a lot of her in the days to come). If you want to find out my answers, just visit Anna on http://www.tinytrinket.wordpress.com.

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1. Favourite Festive Food
Caramelised chestnuts.

2. Favourite Day of Christmas 
Since this is meant to be the favourite day of Christmas from the song 12 days of Christmas – None. I’m really sorry to say that as I know that plenty of people love the song but I can’t stand it. It was on the Christmas playlist in the cupcake shop where I used to work and hearing it several times a day for a whole month made me hate it with a passion. Although, I believe it might have been a different version, so maybe I have to give it another chance.

3. Favourite Festive Drink
Is hot chocolate a festive drink? If not, then it would have to be Starbucks’ Toffee Nut Latte.

4. Favourite Christmas Movie
Love actually. I’ve only seen it once (with Noemi, actually) but I just really liked it and since I don’t know many other Christmas movies, it’s not a difficult choice.

5. Favourite Christmas Decoration
I’m a big fan of delicate baubles in pale colours like light blue, white and silver.

6. Favourite Place to spend Christmas 
Home. Definitely. No need to say more about that.

7. Favourite Christmas Present 
When I was around six years old, I got the most gorgeous princess dress. My mother had sewn it herself and it was all pink and sparkly and I remember saying that this was the best Christmas present I’d ever got. I obviously don’t wear it anymore (mostly due to the fact that I’ve grown a little in the past 14 years) but the dress pops into my mind as soon as I think about Christmas presents.

8. Favourite Christmas Fact
I just had to google “Christmas facts”. Please forgive me. But, I found one that I like: Norwegian scientists have hypothesized that Rudolph’s red nose is probably the result of a parasitic infection of his respiratory system.

9. Favourite Festive Song
It’s beginning to look a lot like Christmas

10. Favourite Festive Book 
I once read a book called Three Cats under the Christmas Tree (or something like that) and it was three different stories, all set in different times but around the time of Christmas. I can’t remember much more but I remember really enjoying reading it.

11. Favourite Harry Potter Christmas
The first one. Just because it was Harry’s first proper Christmas and it’s all so cute.

12. Favourite Festive Scent
The smell of cinnamon. I always love cinnamon but sometimes it feels a little out of place. Not during Christmas time, though!

13. Favourite Christmas Cracker Joke
Why did Santa’s helper see the doctor? – Because he had a low “elf” esteem!

14. Favourite Snowman Accessory
Carrots. Because some little birds could eat them to get through winter.

15. Favourite Day of Advent
The 24th of December. It’s when we celebrate Christmas and no matter how stressful the days leading up to Christmas have been, the 24th is always something special.

Lots of Love from the Roots of my Heart!
xxx

Things I’ll always regret

Everytime I hear Edith Piaf sing «Je ne regrette rieeeeen!» I immediately remember all the things that I regret every single day. Not deep stuff, just things like, I can‘t believe I didn‘t get glasses when I was fifteen! I look so much better wearing those! So, to keep myself from doing a mistake again, I created a list in my diary a while ago (my love for lists is deep!), and today I decided to share it with you. So bear with me!

  • Not using the bathroom before leaving the house
    I always have to pee as soon as I‘m out of any building where they had toilets. I think I must run across the town on an almost daily basis to get to a store where they have free bathroom facilities (it‘s the LOEB Warehouse, in case you‘re wondering. And there‘s always a line) – just because I‘m too stubborn to do it at uni or wherever.
  • Taking a mug of tea to bed
    This already sounds like a terrible idea, yet I never learn. Today I‘ve spilled tea three times, because I constantly place it next to my feet. Smart, huh?
  • Not feeding my cat
    Not that Mr Frodo ever has to starve, but he gets really mean when he’s hungry!
  • Eating TimTam the normal way
    So, a friend recently showed me a video of Carrie Hope Fletcher eating TimTams and I will never stop regretting not having done it her way all my life. So much wasted happiness!

  • Leaving my book at home
    Never, under any circumstance, leave the book you‘re reading at home, because you think you‘re not gonna need it. I‘m taking books to parties, lectures and on hiking trips; there is nothing worse than being bored and not having a book.
  • Joining Instagram
    There’s no turning back, I’m loving it way, way too much!
  • Not telling people how I really feel
    Okay, so there is deep stuff in my diary (and it‘s not just descriptions of the taste of deep fried mars bars!). I don‘t even mean that in an exclusively romantic sense. Telling someone you love them is always the way to go, even if you‘re not in love with them. I‘m always happy to hear that I‘m not just the annoying squeaky person I sometimes see myself as. And I‘m sure others feel the same way.

So, there you go! As far as this goes, I haven‘t actually managed to change at all. Except for the TimTam thing (although, it‘s reason number three for spilling my tea today!). It‘s not a very long list, so I suppose I could just look past it and sing along to Madame Piaf!

Btw, for those of you who are not following me on Facebook, my wonderful friend Inga, who travelled the UK with me, made a gorgeous video montage of our time on the island. It‘s so worth the ten minutes, I promise!

Rien, de rien!
xxx